Mountain Confessions…

Pete Alwinson January 27 2010 - 1 Comment

…Journal of a Pooped Pastor on a Study Break

The 6th Day…

It’s January 2010 and I begin this new decade with three decades of ministry laying thick on my soul. Thick on my soul. Heavy. Good and rich experiences and head shaking, “I can’t believe I went through that” experiences. Here I am physically healthy and mentally and emotionally, still quite tired actually after nearly a week in reflection, reading, prayer and study. Well, it’s been since last July that I had time away from hyper drive ministry. 6 months at it straight isn’t wise I know, but stuff happens in ministry and you can’t always get away when you should, if you can even afford to get away. I guess really it’s been 6 months and 30 years. I’m not complaining. I know I’m blessed. I’m at a friend’s home in the North Georgia mountains. I’m sitting on a soft couch in front of a nice fire place writing this. It’s sort of my fault that I haven’t come here before. He’s offered it over and over. Finally I took him up on his generosity. I wonder about my pastoral colleagues…you who might read this. I wonder…have you gotten away, by yourself…do you even have the opportunity I have had this week to do this? I want that for you. We in the pastorate don’t think we can get away or should take time off to study, even though EVERYBODY knows you need a break. (What about the pastor I know who takes a month a year off to study…he’s lasted a long time…mmm…no wonder)The complexities of our lives work against disconnecting ourselves from a very people/program/calendar connected life. We’re usually relationally and programtically overloaded. (more…)

Shutting the Doors for Good

Pastor Pete December 14 2009 - 2 Comments

When A Church Dies

Casualties of this economy are everywhere. The obvious tell-tale signs of economic death are the hundreds of empty offices with brown paper on the windows and trash in the entry ways, malls where your voice echos in the emptiness, and drawn faces of men with dark circles under their eyes who answer, “How you doing man?”, with…”Well…you won’t believe this, but….” No I believe it. Every one of us pastors has dealt with more sorrow in ’08 & ’09 than anyone really knows. Our counseling appointments are up, what 50-75%? More?

One of my elders is responsible right now for shutting down a factory in his hometown. He used to work there, his father used to work there, and many of his friends still work there. He took the assignment because he felt that he could bring about this death more painlessly than any one else in his company. Economic death.

Death is a reality all pastors have to deal with. (more…)

What’s Wrong With Me?

Pete Alwinson September 28 2009 - 1 Comment

“So what I want to know is, why do you still have a church and I don’t? What’s wrong with me?”

It’s a Thursday afternoon at Starbucks and I’m sitting with a 64 year old pastor friend of mine, uh, former pastor friend of mine, who three years earlier had been unceremoniously cut loose from the ministry he built from 70 to 400 people over 16 years. His leaders had done it all wrong, even illegally according to church protocol. I can’t help but think while he’s talking, “What good is a Book of Church Order if you don’t follow it? It’s supposed to work, and does sometimes. It’s supposed to keep us from slashing the heart out of the people of God. Ya, but you’ve messed up using the BOCO too Pete. Uh huh.”

“Why do you still have a church and I don’t?” (more…)

Noise Is Better Than Vomit

Pete Alwinson August 18 2009 - No Comment

So I’m talking to our worship director on Monday morning as he comes in to my office to work his magic and try and help me get my iPhone working properly again (one of his many ministries to me): “So Jeff how’s it going…how’s the family?” Pause…hesitation…uh oh. Yesterday was a great Sunday of worship. Jeff is a tremendous worship leader…the best…stay away from him. As Steve has said many times, my elders gave me a .45 and I know how to use it and will in the right circumstances. You stand warned. My sermon also went reasonably well Sunday. I didn’t have speaker’s remorse hitting the red zone this Monday. But it was Monday…another day.

Cutting to the chase it was a rough morning (more…)

Delayed Gratitude

Pete Alwinson March 04 2009 - 1 Comment

Did you say “Delayed Gratification”? Nope. Gratitude. Thanks. Attaboys. Confirmations that our ministry is on target and makes sense and is being used by the Spirit of God to bring about real transformation in people’s lives, specially when you have to say tough things to someone you love. I’m sure you get comments of gratitude and thanks for your sermons from time to time, like “Man you were on fire!”, “Have you been following me around this week?” (I always affirm that I have), “I was taking notes!” or “Good jokes pastor.” You might get positive comments every week, and that’s great. I don’t, but then Baptist preacher Calvin Miller said that if he gave 25 good sermons a year he was happy. That helped me be happy too with whatever I get. Steve Brown says that if you get 51% you chalk it up as success. I can live with that.

Back to gratitude. I like hearing that I’m getting through and that (more…)

Master and Commander, Again

Pastor Pete January 26 2009 - No Comment

I know, I know, it’s an old movie now. But I liked the movie and watched it the other day, again. Master and Commander starred Russell Crowe as the brash British Naval Captain John Aubry. “Lucky Jack” of the HMS Surprise. For a Presbyterian Pastor, any saying or title with “luck” or “lucky” in it always forces a self-righteous smirk to our faces. We know there is no such thing as luck because God is sovereign!

Still, I like “Lucky Jack” a whole lot. He’s my kind of guy. Remember the movie? Captain Jack Aubry uses all of his seafaring talent, skill and experience in leading his men in battle against the French Frigate Archeron. It was a mismatch for sure; the 29 guns of the HMS Surprise to the 47 guns of the Archeron. No way Aubry could defeat one of Napoleon’s finest. But with the use of creative maneuvers and deception, they not only defeated the Archeron, they captured it! Master and Commander! (more…)

War Stories

Pete Alwinson October 17 2008 - 6 Comments

When the smoke cleared, there were some bodies on the floor of the pastor’s study. He’d had it with these few elders who seemed experts in stonewalling progress while poking holes in his fragile ego at the same time. This had gone on for too many years. Sometimes pastors are pushed too far. This “pistol packing padre” had reached his limit and eliminated his ecclesiastical opposition forever…you should have seen the terror in their eyes when he pulled out his .45…

Well…it didn’t happen quite that way, but a well-respected, nationally-known Senior Pastor of a large, downtown Presbyterian Church said to me once as he was pointing to his office carpet, “A lot of blood has been spilt on this carpet.” Pastoral conflict. Sounds banal and bland. How about war? War may be a better word. Sometimes the pastor is involved in conflict that reaches war-like proportions. Agree? I’ll tell you right now, had I known how much conflict I was going to experience as a Senior Pastor, I would probably have never gone into the ministry. Now, I’d read the Gospels and Acts in Bible college and, of course, in seminary. I saw the conflict in extending the Kingdom of God in God’s Word; I mean, you can’t miss it! But I failed to appropriate it for myself! I was as na‹ve as could be when I first became a Senior Pastor, dealing with and absorbing conflict I never had to face as a Ministry Intern or Youth Pastor. (more…)